I naturally revolt against waiting. I like to know exactly what is coming. In this season with Anna, we know so little about the future. Right now, we are waiting on a test result that will change our lives. The major chromosome abnormalities, including Down syndrome, came back negative. But there are still several chromosomes that we are waiting to hear about. An abnormality in any one of those would keep us from proceeding with the amnioinfusions.
It is very difficult for me to wait this one out. I wish I could do something to help my daughter. My amount of control is small. All we can do is entrust our souls and our child to God. There is absolutely nothing else that we can do. We are waiting. Watching and waiting for our Lord to move.
Anna’s second amnioinfusion also went extremely well. God has so graciously and faithfully protected Emily and Anna during these treatments. It is such a blessing to see Anna clearly and to see life-nurturing fluid gushing into Emily’s womb. I am humbled that God has allowed us to see even this. If we had lived any time other than these last six years, we could have never sought any medical treatment for our precious little girl. What a gift. No matter what happens, I will remember and treasure this time we have had with her.
As we wait for chromosome testing, we remember that we are also waiting for greater things. More than we long to see the result of a medical test, we long to see the return of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. What we wait for this weekend is uncertain. What we wait for in Christ’s return is absolutely certain. I know He will come. It is an absolute fact. Because of Him, I live. Because of Him, I hope.
The hope of the gospel informs everything else in our life. As C.S. Lewis said, “I believe in Christianity as I believe the sun has risen. Not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” That is our life right now. I have hope for this weekend because of the gospel. We have hope for Anna Nicole because of the incredible and abiding hope in Jesus that can never be snatched from us. Jesus is Lord. Jesus is faithful. Jesus will never leave us. That is security. That is hope.
Please pray with us! Pray that Jesus Christ will be fully glorified in her life and in our lives. We want Him to be magnified and seen for the wonder and marvel that He is through our small existence. Pray that Anna Nicole’s lungs flourish and her body grows in leaps and bounds. Pray that she does not have any chromosomal abnormalities so we can continue treatment. And pray that God would heal her and bring her through this process as a testimony to His greatness and love. And even if He does not, we pray that He will be made much of through us walking through this journey. We appreciate each of you and your support.
For the Glory of God Alone,